Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Make My Heart Like Yours

There is a little less than a month till Intake starts. I'll admit I'm nervous. I'm an introvert and I'm afraid I'll shy away from my fellow missionaries-in-training. I'm nervous about being the youngest girl, I'm afraid I will just try to ''keep quite and keep out of the way".  In the midst of my worrying God has been showing me that it will all be okay.

Psalm 55:22
Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.

What I need to work on now, and for the rest of my life, is to make my heart like His. People are not my favorite.  They are noisy, talking all the time, they have different ideas than I do, sometimes even a small group of friends intimidate me. Me, is my space, and I don't want a ton of people tramping in it. Dwelling on this I've asked God why He's called me to be a missionary.

Ezekiel 36:26

And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.
I, by myself, can not be a missionary. By myself I will fail. I will see people and freeze, not knowing what to say or what to do. Only with God can I work to be strong enough.  He can nudge me towards a group of people.  Only with God can I be the crazy person who smiles at everyone, even stopping to talk to people on the street. 
This change can only happen if I give my heart to God and ask Him to make it like His.   


1 comment:

  1. Abi~
    I hear your heart but being your mama I also know and see in you something beautiful that will unfold. You are an introvert and are intimidated by others, but I also know how much you care for people. I've seen you rejoice with them when they are blessed and I see you grieve for them when their actions are leading them further away from God. You are even willing to self-sacrifice for others. You run very deep my love.
    This Intake maybe you can read Proverbs, Ecclesiastes, 1 Corinthians 13 and then Song of Solomon - in that order.
    I am so proud of you and I love you very much.